| Mum |
[Apr. 20th, 2004|02:52 am] |
Today is the 3rd day i back to my hometown. This time back to hometown I do not know when I will back to KL again.
The 1st this I do not wish to hear when i reach hometown is my mum's medical report. Recently mum did the bone scan, and the report out said that the cel cancer already attact her back bone and also her leg bone. I really tension and do not know what i can do now. My mum cancer geting serious more serious...and doctor told my sisters must have a ready to accept everything that come suddenly.
Before I back to hometown, I also told myself that to ready accept everything...but when i am in my home town, I cant, I really cant....I cry and cry and cry...for whole nite. can not sleep....becasue I really do not want my mum away from me... But what i can do now I also do not know. I already try to make my mum happy, I try to company my mum more... only these I can do...otehrs then that I realiy do not know... I really do not know how long my mum life...but I just wish there will have a miracle happen, my mum can recover from teh cancer... wish to... |
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[Apr. 15th, 2004|12:04 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | "unchange melody" wish the life will go on... | ] |
Today is the 3rd day I back to My Hometown. This time i back to home town to company my mum and dad. The mood for this time i go back still same with last time when mum gets cervical cancer, this time mum gets lung cancer. I really do not know what i can do. I do not know what i can help.
For me, at this moment I really very hard to make choice for my life. because I jsut grad and I have to look for new job, but mum is more importance then work, so, I really do not know which one i should choose.
But i think i already make my choice, the thing that i am worrying is I still can get a job after 6 months or longer?maybe can maybe not, if can get maybe not in the design or animation line or in this entertainment industry at all. I Do not know, I really do not how is my future...
Nothing, for this journal, i just want to say out what in my heart now, coz i really very sad, tension, presure ...a lot a lot....i really do not know who i can tell in my home town...I jsut wish that my mum will get well soon, hopw not like doctor said so serious... |
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| Vomiting with animation...~ |
[Mar. 8th, 2004|04:25 am] |
eeeeekkkkkeekekekek,.a..a..a.a
In Hell~ bal bla bla.~
HELL BOY`...Hell Hell Hell..wat hte Hell~..
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| non productivity day |
[Feb. 11th, 2004|02:01 am] |
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| | wee wang wang | ] |
today very tiered. I also do not know why and I also can not tell what i did besides sleep. Tomoro must start work, I already behind at otehrs people. But i really can not concentrate. Maybe my mum going to do her radiotheraphy tomoro. I will wish mum will oki, this what i can do now. I pray for you mum.
I just back from supper and very full adn lazy to do any work. so just wait the time pass and wasted it....and wait for another morning come to me... |
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| babababababab |
[Feb. 3rd, 2004|11:17 pm] |
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after present sleep not well...
haii~......work like abc...sleep like do re mi..wat ever also like.....beku liao...wat la...
ki sioa liao...
now..kong kong hin hin siao siao....no ppl und wat i m talking abotu even myself..:D
we wang wang......flying....jump into recycle bin to find mr. bean~ wee..... |
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| After Crit 6 |
[Feb. 3rd, 2004|10:58 am] |
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Today is anotehr crit day. every week i also die with my shit shit animation kns animation. i really give up them liao. But if i give upI will wasted my 3 years in MMU. If I not come in MMu what I am doing now??I also no idea. After i resign from potential art, I do not think that I can get any job out side liao kua. Do not know le.
These few days really bad mood coz do work do work...i hate the animation I am doing now. but I cant hate it if I hate it I will not continue to do it la..um~...do not know la. What i want now I also do not know. people can do very geng animation i can do very SAI animation. this is my talent kua.
just mou liu here do not want to think about animation want go to sleep liao now..sleep la better thn anything la. Sleep is the best....sleep Man Sui Man Man Sui~..yea...go sleep.:D |
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| Hopeless Life... |
[Feb. 3rd, 2004|05:00 am] |
every week also the same sad thing the animation ....sick with it...
hai..hope less and no hope in my life liao..give up witht he aniamtiion anymore....wooo~>...huu...ray...i fail my.......FA..final year liao..yea....celebration..yea... |
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| Boring day |
[Jan. 31st, 2004|10:16 pm] |
Ping pong piang puang....
whole day do nothign like shit...go to die soon....haii~...
mppp..pkm..!@#$%^&*()
giveup..... |
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| back to School after Chinese New Year - 1st day. |
[Jan. 29th, 2004|10:27 pm] |
Yesterday i back from home town half way the car's battery something wrong, but finally very lucky that i can reach KL my girl friend's house. Then stop at my girl friend's house to stay a night there. the next day morning, means is today morning, after wake up then sent the car to ther workshop to repair. The same problem with last time, the dianamo not working so have to change it. This is the 3rd times i change the dianamo in KL in these 3 years. So, the guy ask me to change the battery as well. So, i jsut change la what i can do is that only. I called back to dad then dad said change thn change it lo.
After the car had fix, then i back to campus. After i reach campus, i feel home sick. I miss home, i miss my mum. Mum is sick now, i can not takecare her and company her. I do not know what i can do for my mum, i just hope that mum can recover very fast and come to KL attend my graduation.but i do not know i can finish my final project or not. I really feel sad with myself, i so lazy i so lousy...all the shit i have... Sometime i feel that i not suppose back to study, i must continue working if i continue working my mum now not worry about my study anymore maybe I already have my own car adn house so can give mum better things...but these all is my imagination and not happen now... I so sad every time when i think about mum, Mum i really miss ou and I do not know how to express myself when i see you. I will try my best to finish my work and try my best to get good result, I hope mum will not disappointed. I wish to....
Life is short, appreaciate the person besides us and always thanks to others. I wish mum will fine as soon as possible...
today mood is sad, home sick, tears... |
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| Live on 8TV at Sunway Pyramid!! |
[Jan. 17th, 2004|10:42 am] |
Um~.....yesterday..not is 2 days ago forgot to write my journal.~coz sleepy adn lazy lo....coz thursday just finish my last critc tht have before the mid term beark.so, after the presentation and have my lucn thn i went back to sleep, zZZzz~....untill nite time dunno what time I went out to sunway for my dinner, after dinner we hang around in Sunway, walk walk do not know where to go, so we decide go to starbux.~hee...wOo~...we saw a shooting is setting up in startbux here, so, we also find a place adn sit down and get a drink.
Wo!~oOo~....we saw Jason Lo. He is malaysia Singer. That shooting is his live show on 8TV~!Um thn we sit there and watch the talk show. The talk show is like the us show call..errr.David Laterman ar..if not wrong la..hee.. At the same time i saw a guy that look very familiar and he also look at me and said" I knw you some where".woi~..siapa tu har...i think think think think....so long i think i still cant get where i knw that guy but his face so familiar,hehe...after a while teh show started, thn the 1st came out is Miss Malaysia World, wat her name liao...dunno la...got sze or wat every dunno never see her on tv or mag also la. After that is a indian uncler, the uncelr very funny, make a lot of joke on the stage, woo,,.haha..but i also not really understand what the host Jason and the indian uncler talk about la.~
The last one is the music playin thing, "The Guy"(ha....name frm spy kid 3D) who look familiar also one of the instrument player. So they play their music on the stage..woo..we we wang wang um um hong hong tata la la...tik tik tok tok..~um...good good music something like the music in the Tropical Rain Forest Music Fextval in Sarawak every year lo..nice nice. after a while the show end lo. Then we also leave thn i wlaked pass by THE GUY, and he ask me " are you from MMU"...wOo~..yea...i remeber it..i knw him in the orientation week. now he is studying no la. ithink he graduated kua i also dunno la....I just can not recornise him because his hair from 2 years ago totaly diffference now is Long ang like....the rug string...:P..hee...last item not ma....so good hair.So, at last he mrecall my memory back lo....
This day have a nice ncie day coz after presentation have live show to watch and also meet a friend that i knw but can not remember..haha..:D...kk..this for Thursday Nite and Firday Morning. |
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